Nicollette Renee’s Word Vomit for September 18, 2023

 Nicollette Renee’s Word Vomit

 for September 18, 2023

I have no reason to tell stories that are untrue. I am not getting anything from writing this blog, I am just starting this blog from which is a representation of my feelings written on paper as what i call “Word Vomit”. My hopes are to help at least one person a day overcome their struggles, past or present.  which has been in the making for a very long time. I just never knew how easily my words have been accepted and how many people like reading what I write or listening to what I have to say. I hope that people can feel what I am saying because it all comes from the soul. So, in a sense, I am exposing my soul to y’all.n I value the fact that I am self aware enough to recognize my faults and blessings. We all have them, we just need to find ourselves within them, embrace our flaws because they are ours and they are only flaws because we say they are. The blessings I speak of are, for me, my ability to keep smiling after all the pain and trauma I’ve endured; the ability to spread happiness and to teach my children that even after dark days, this Sunflower never fell. She is still standing tall, always looking to the sky for the sun to shine through the clouds. When this does happen, this sun shines so bright that it blinds anyone trying to block my sun or dim the shine that comes from within my Crazy-Happy Soul! I have come to the conclusion that I cannot appreciate the Beautiful, Sunkissed Days that bring me happiness and fresh, warm air, into my soul which ignites a fire inside of me, Heart and Soul. Maybe my thoughts on paper can help someone dealing with today, yesterday or something that they are holding on to and cannot let or get past. Maybe you can’t explain what you are feeling or what word you want to use, sometimes just giving yourself a break, write down what you're thinking as you are thinking of it. Even if it doesn’t make sense to anyone, even yourself until finished with your thoughts and those thoughts being read and interpreted as you see them. It’s all you and your thoughts and feelings. No one can tell you that your thoughts, opinions,or  any other type of self communication within yourself is wrong. Yes, I will say, I do think that self-love is hard and it takes so much energy to hate, that if you do not love yourself, you are wasting so much energy not loving yourself (this causes depression, anxiety around others, judgment or fear of, a lack of trying, listening to others opinions of you, which is not anything you should care about to overcome you and this eventually can lead me, for sure myself, into an area of darkness that makes you believe it when someone says that I am not good enough, pretty enough, and even when I am “failing’ at something that I need to master, I have practicing acceptance which is important in order to not backslide or forget who we are and what our purpose is. I have given myself kudos for surviving and not letting things keep me from who I really am. Pretending to be someone that we aren’t, for someone else, won’t be a good feeling for long. If you feel like you are moving away from yourself to make someone else happy ( this includes changing who you are, how you dress, talk, who your friends are, ect…. If you are changing to appease someone else, you are not being true to yourself which means you are letting your “love” for someone or the words that they say to you, change your self-love thinking from You being firstly important to you putting yourself on the sidelines or behind anything else, is unhealthy and moves you away from You. Letting this happen will put you back in darkness. You have to put you first before anyone or anything else or your self-worth (your feeling about yourself) will be much lower and you’ll back in a  “hole”. The “hole” in which we are; at least I am;  presently working to stay far away from so I do not slip and fall into said “hole” again, as long as I can help it!  Sometimes the experiences and thoughtful words of another human being is what we need to hear, even if we don’t “hear it” per say the first time the message is delivered. This is why I am writing this Blog. To Help myself get thoughts out on paper so that someone in need of reading them will do just that, read these words and take something that I said in this Blog and pass it on, learn something new, be inspired, gather some hope, pick your head up, walk with your head high, chin up buttercup, and seize the day. Carpe Diem. Life Can Only Be Understood Backwards but Must Be Lived Walking Forward! If we stop walking, life doesn’t stop too, so don’t stand in one place for too long or you may miss something you were looking for or waiting on. Standing still in this world is like standing still in the middle of a dancefloor. All things move (vibrating counts) when the music is playing… If you are standing there, and you can’t feel the beat or vibration of the music, are you really alive? Are you happy inside? Do you Love Yourself? If you answered No to any of these questions, I suggest you look long and hard to truly see yourself in the mirror and don’t stop checking that. It could take multiple times a day to really see yourself as you are and how HE sees you and Love Who You Are!… Until you have learned to truly love yourself, and not just say it, You Cannot Love and Cannot Be Loved by Another Person, not truly. Self-Love is the foundation for loving others as HE does. 

These are My Thoughts and Opinions, I will not be judged for my writings as I do not judge those around me. God says not to judge because the only person who decides what and who should be judged and how would be HIM! No one is better than another. We don't know and some of us do not care to know or learn anything about a person that is new to us or “unlike” us, whatever that may mean. We can only learn each other’s stories by sharing them with each other. This can be done in many ways like simply asking someone about themselves and actually care to listen to what they have to say. With cotton in our ears and our mouths flapping, we can learn nothing. Once we take that cotton out of our ears and stuff our mouths silent, our ears open up and we then can listen to what someone else has to say or we can empathize, sympathize, understand the way someone is by knowing their story. We should not listen to the hearsay out there in this world. All hearsay is, is someone’s belief of what they want to be true or just a story made up to cause issues for someone other than ourselves. Most people do not even care if what they are repeating is true If I believed everything I heard or acted on those hearsay stories, I would be worse off than ever. I also would be a tragedy, dead according to the reputation and exaggerations of my life, untruths spoken by those who never met me or had met me and never cared to get to know me as a person. To judge someone is not only immoral, judgment of others means you put yourself above others as though you are a better human being. This is NOT the case, judgment comes from those who think they and their ways are superior to others’. 

This in the end, is a terrible attribute to have because if you have room in your life to judge others then you are not paying enough attention in your own mirror! Those who judge do not see themselves as equal to others which in the end, is the Devil’s work and will collect his “followers” as God does on judgment day, as Heaven and Hell goes through your sins at the time of entering the afterlife, those who judged others will go to hell and live a life in a hell of judgment day after day for eternity. If you don’t want to be judged as hating others or  cynical, or self-centered, the “world revolves around me” type, then don’t judge others.

AGAIN, WE HAVE NO ROOM TO JUDGE EACH OTHER! WE EACH HAVE OUR OWN STORY AND ARE LOVED BY THE HOLY TRINITY NO MATTER WHAT OUR SINS AS LONG AS LOVE OURSELVES AND THY NEIGHBOR WITH GREAT INTENTIONS OF FRIENDSHIP AND LOVING FELLOWSHIP.